Yes, that's my msn nick. It's new year today... a day with complicated feelings...
It wasn't that a joyous occasion for me...given the fact that i still have to work on this very boring day... my manager let me off two hours earlier... that's something to be happy and here i thought i FINALLY get to rest my mind, body, myself for a whole two days... something that I requested for... an off day that i fought for myself... I didn't realise that i was that tired and needed time alone...
But now... all my plans have to be cancelled... cos my grandfather's not feeling well and i got to being him to the doc tml... its not that i mind.... i dun mind bringing him to the doc, as long as he is well, i'm fine... but den... i broke down... now... alone in my own room... with the music blasted...
i probably couldn't cope with the disappointment and the stress that is pressurizing me... I know that this few years will be tough: money not enough, portfolio and projects, fretting over further studies, etc etc... so when it all suddenly comes down to me and bottles up within me... i jus exploded... i know i shouldn't be so spoilt... i know i really shouldn't... but the little gal within me jus wan to be wilful... she wants to do things her way....
for all she knows, time has already left her behind and everyone is GROWING UP.
